From journal entry of 7/16/16 … have come into deeper understanding when ‘that space’ (really His plan for me) seemed irrelevant or ‘unnecessary’. An understanding or aspect of my nature to which I paid little attention, but now realize how self limiting that ‘little attention’ approach can become… Thus my lack of change when change becomes readily available (through Him), and when my spirit (intelligence from my soul) urges me onward, upward = a disappointment (corruption) against my eternal nature, a price / failure that need not happen.
The alternate then, sweet and long term reward and peace, continuing to accept him by changing ‘my stuff’ to invite / welcome his elevated discipline(s!). Not hard because He knows me with all my shortcomings… so well He knows me and wants me not to beat myself up because I fall short, but to look to him for healing and change. Any other way lacks energy to sustain that sweet, elevating, long term success. Thus ‘to your knees’ kdm, forsaking the worldly, ‘less than he would have me seek but instead, and over time all that he knows I can successfully seek… the only place (price?) of eternal reason, understanding, happiness, fulfillment… truly a small price to pay. In giving my life again (and again and again…), over to Jesus Christ, I find newness of life, purpose and eternal realities! kdm
